summer blues

So bored with my summer. Even though we had closed the distance, we are still so near yet so far. Damn.

Some other time, maybe. Push.

dot.dot.dot

thinking about you and all the good times we had together gives me a reason to continue what i have started; to pursue all the good times that we will share together. forever.

but sometimes i get so freaked out by the thought of you leaving me alone, once again, and never coming back. just wanna let you know that i want you and i need you. so please. whatever happens, just have faith in me because i will do anything for us. just don't lose hope on us. we are gonna be one, after all.

all tired up, never had any dosage of sleep. and it's you on my mind. why, oh why?

P.S. I love you.

wtf?

i don't really know what is going on inside this mind of mine, all i know is that it brings me headaches and makes me wanna sleep. 7 days to go and i still have a lot of unfinished business here. i appreciate if someone could help and take me away to a whole new world, where problems does not exist.

to my sweet little devil, i shall be seeing you next week. i can't keep this excitement botlled up anymore, i just wanna be with you right now. ikaw, payatot ka, i love you. sorry if i haven't lived up to your expectations, i am just a mere "dioveth". i want you to understand this. i was born to love you, and to show you i love you all the time. forever is our mantra, we are the stars in our own show. you and me, there's nothing more, nothing less. distance did really made us change, time really took its effect upon us. but i assure you, whatever happens, you will still and always will be my munchkin. YOU are my everything. i love you, trixie noreen. words aren't enough to express what i have here in the velvet fold of my heart for you.

and i will be and always be a free man. i will not be forced to do things that i don't like, even though it's the only way out.

tomorrow is thursday, and i will be home exactly next week.

sayonara.

badtripness and a lot of things

badtripness to the bones.

i'm feeling it and i know that it won't be too soon until i get rid of this uneasiness building up inside me. a lot has been going through my mind and it all went down on me just a while ago. a single event that happened during this afternoon just made my day - or should i say fucking completely ruined my day. you know it and you act as if you don't. this goes out to you, i think it's better for you to know that you are the reason behind this. thank you for making me feel like a sore loser. but you don't care and i know it. it all goes in my mind that you have spared me even a bit of concern, but in reality, sad to say, you really don't.

anyway. thanks for being a wonderful acquaintance. i won't forget you, you beautiful little devil. =]

march.

march 2, 2010.

16 days after and im gonna be home.

oyeah.so excited.

uncertain

Dawn accompanies me as I am posting this. Just woke up at midnight and then proceeded to somehow make lab reports but nothing was done. Which led to this. This is really utter nonsense. I don't know why I even posted this post.

I have a question for the visitors of this blog. Does love really change with distance and time?

I was pissed at the Chem Lec exam yesterday. I didn't know where our professor got the questions but it was absolutely out of this world. It poked even the depths of my brain.

Something must happen later, I must see you. You lighten up my day with just your presence. You paint a smile all over my face when I see you. Oh yeah you make me so goddamn happy I wish she was you.

ilyrynmf

I'm bored.

To the love of my life.. I never knew what really caused this growing gap between us. I cannot recall doing anything to make you feel bad. I didn't make you feel bad, did I? I even greeted you on Valentine's, half expecting that you would greet me too with the same enthusiasm that I showed. Well, anyway, it's been a week now that you haven't texted me or even answered my calls. I am worried about you. About us. About what would happen to the relationship that we both raised four years ago. It seems like it's all going downhill from here. I love you and you know that. If you ever read this post, just know that I am thinking about you and only you every moment that we're far away from each other.

No texts from you, either. What the hell is wrong with my life.